1/2/13

@Bella - Sometimes I do tell him to indulge my fetishes a bit more, but he seems to happy at the thought that he can please me that I don't have the heart to tell him it's mostly fake XD

The weather has been crazy here. There's at least a foot of snow on the ground so my friend who came over for New Years hasn't left yet and may not for a few days. It's okay though because he's so sweet and nice and he doesn't hit on me at all (he isn't gay though), so being around him is wonderful for my anxiety. =)

1/1/14

Haha I always fake it and my bf has no idea =3

Happy New Year my dears <3 I can't believe it's 2014!
Hopefully this year will be better than last year was <3

12/31/13

So it's the last day of the year. Holy shit. It doesn't feel like it's been a year and I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not.

The neighbors have left apparently. At least, their car isn't out front. Hopefully they aren't coming back tonight. It would be nice to have a New Years Eve without them being loud and rude and annoying and pms-y.

I couldn't face my morning coffee and yogurt so I had a big mug of peppermint tea instead.

Happy New Years Eve!

12/30/13

So apparently I just can't keep food down? I dunno. I had a normal breakfast today (light yogurt - 80cals, soy milk in coffee - 8cals, 88 total, which is safe, yes?) and the neighbors were being so horribly loud. Like yelling about how annoying our dog is and slamming shit around downstairs. Or at least that's what it sounded like. So I threw it up and now I'm too scared to have anything else today because I thought I was done with that making-myself-throw-up bullshit.

Clearly not.

12/29/13

Jones soda makes a zero calorie black cherry soda. I didn't see any aspartame in it. And it doesn't taste like aspartame. Or have the laxative effect of it. Oh my god. We were messing around at Big Lots yesterday and found a case of 24 cans of the stuff for $7.50. Yes!

It tastes amazing. <3

Also. As much as I despise my neighbors for saying they're going to legally force us to debark our dog, I do have to admit they have done one good thing. They helped me realize that I can still make myself throw up when I thought I couldn't do it anymore. Haha fuck you assholes I will always find the silver lining.

12/28/13

The neighbors have been unbelievably loud recently. They got back yesterday and I haven't had a moment's peace so I've been listening to loud music through my earphones though that doesn't help much since they are literally shaking the entire apartment.

Bf got me a crapton of 80cal yogurt and apples. <3 So happy right now.

12/27/13

Today was weird. I had cottage cheese and coffee for breakfast (wtf?). Then bf wanted to go to Panera for a late lunch (just got back around 4pm) and I had a half soup/half sandwich thing (he ordered for me ugh) and I was stuffed after a small cup of water and a few small bites of each thing. He got me a red velvet cookie from there too so there's some leftovers sitting at home now because I was like...  REALLY stuffed after the few bites at lunch. It's strange how my stomach seems so much smaller now. I'm not complaining though. (=