10/31/13

The neighbors played horribly loud music yesterday. Like, they live under us and it was vibrating the floor and making my gums hurt like fucking hell so I screamed in pain (I couldn't go out because my pain meds make me too dizzy to walk right and I didn't want to take more pain meds because I'd already taken 2 that day) and they turned the music up more and then the bf came home and said it's my fault they did that because I'm so fat.

He keeps treating them like they're royalty or something and the only reason he does that is because the girl is so fucking skinny and they have these perfect little Christian names (nothing against Christians, but these are like the BAD kind of Christians who get off on telling you you're going to hell if you aren't one of them). Like, they hate that our dog barks and said we should get an anti-bark collar for her, which are these terribly inhumane things.

And the percocet made me all loopy today during class (to the point where I was convinced that sheep hatched out of painted Easter eggs) but then when I got home I crashed really bad from it apparently and I couldn't stop crying and wishing I could sleep but being too miserable to sleep. So I think I'm done with the percocet for a while.

Ugh I just wish my gums would stop hurting like crazy.

10/30/13

Thanks Bella =) I'm only working on my 5th language though. I'm in my second year (3rd semester) of Chinese, so I don't exactly *know* it yet.

Ugh one of my medications is making me really dizzy. It's either the percocet or the anti-swelling one.

Thankfully I'll be off the anti-swelling one after taking the last pill of it tonight. =) Which means no more eating loads and loads of food. Still more food than I would like to eat, but nowhere near as bad as it has been.

Starting tomorrow, I'm having a light yogurt for breakfast (since percocet will make me sick if I take it on a completely empty stomach) and a small cup of something for dinner (bf got me fat free cottage cheese and I like putting curry powder into it, so that's an option <3) and a cup of tea and water throughout the day, then work my way down from there (aka stop eating so much as soon as I'm off all the pills)

La la la. Thankfully something (probably the percocet again haha) is keeping me from getting too panicky about all this damn eating. =)

10/29/13

About the achieving things thing... what I mostly want to achieve is learning a lot of languages, which I do have to work on consistently. Sigh. I planned to learn a new language every 3 years. Considering I'm only on my 5th language, that means I'm tragically behind. T_T

The surgery yesterday went really well <3 The doctor and his like, assistants or whatever you call them (nurses? are they nurses for a surgeon? I dunno) were so nice! Like I had chosen to get general anesthesia instead of just a local anesthetic so they had to give me a nose breathing tube with laughing gas and oxygen and an IV and when they saw me panic a little (not physically, it was just apparently really obvious from my eyes) when they started wheeling the IV bag in, they immediately wheeled it out again and started me on the breathing tube and I couldn't even see the IV bag when they did bring it in, and I'm not sure it would have scared me that much even if I had by that point XD I had lovely dreams about vacations and boats and stuff and when I woke up what felt like 5 minutes later, they were all like "you're done!" and I'm like "yay!" and I didn't even mind the nurse/assistant holding me to help me walk out to my mom's car because I was so out of it XD

So now I'm on loads of pills (5 total, counting my birth control) and the percocet is making me dizzy and shaky as fuck... well, not shaky, but like weak, it's hard to walk. And I have to eat WAY too much because apparently you're supposed to eat a little every time you take percocet (which is about 4-5 times a day for me) and eat a small meal every time you take the anti-swelling pill (twice a day) so.. yeah not fun =/ Oh well... antiswelling is only for one more day and the rest of the pills will be gone in a week so... hopefully I'll be all good by then. =)

How are you all doing? <3

10/27/13

I got the entire Series of Unfortunate Events from the bf and some pampering stuff as well as a gift certificate for a massage from my mom.

I have a 5 page essay due Tuesday that I'm just starting to research and I'm freaking the fuck out.

I've had an apple today.

God I'm fat.

10/26/13

Today's my 20th birthday and my puppy has been curled up next to me under the blankets all morning. That's probably as good as my day is going to get.

I don't feel that old. =/ I feel like I should have achieved something in my life by my 20th birthday...

10/24/13

10/23/13

About that meal plan thing I posted earlier? Yeah no candy... Haha god what was I thinking. The thought of food is making me sick right now. =/

People keep asking me why I'm with my bf and I don't know how to explain to them that I love how sadistic he is in bed. First world problems... XD