The title of this blog is from the book Blood Beast (Book 5 of the Demonata series). I take no credit for it. ^_^

Wednesday, April 30, 2014


My Tumblr is a lot less personal than my blog is, mostly because I can't resist reblogging cool/interesting stuff. There is a little bit of sexual/graphic content on there, but not really much I think... just a warning though =3

The reason I stopped seeing my therapist is I just couldn't deal with wasting her time and I was lying to her about a lot so I was just like fuck it I'll deal with this on my own.

Sunday, April 27, 2014


I'm considering switching to Tumblr as my primary blogging platform even though I know it's not proper blogging. I'll still follow and comment on people's blogs but I'll put my own thoughts on Tumblr, not here.

Friday, April 25, 2014


The weather is quite lovely recently and the bf knows I love spending time outside when it's like this. He decided to go get coffee with skinny gamer girl.

I should just stop crying and use this time alone to exercise and drink more caffeine than any human should ingest in a week.

Thursday, April 24, 2014


@Alice - It won't let me get a follower thing because I don't have a Google+ account, which it won't let me do because I don't want to tell it my name for obvious reasons. Ugh. Apparently "Vampire" isn't a real enough name for then. I can't wait until the Twilight-era kids start having kids...

My bf told me today that he didn't believe that the neighbors would try to hurt me because "the girl is too thin and pretty to ever be violent". Guess who's not eating ever again?

They woke me up at 7am today, after I went to sleep around 1 and was up from about 4-6. So I got like... 4 hours of sleep? I dunno. I'm so tired. I can't stand straight and I'm THIS CLOSE to falling asleep but I've had just enough diet coke to keep me from falling asleep but not enough to keep me awake. Does that make sense?

I met with my therapist today for the last time. I told her everything is wonderful and I'm wonderful and everything's perfect and I'm happy and stress free but I'll totally come back if I need more counseling later on. I won't. She wasn't really helping anyway.

I just want to sleep right now.

Wednesday, April 23, 2014


I'm really fucking shaken up today. When I was on my way back from my morning class (I always come home after this class on Mondays and Wednesdays because my next class is 4 hours after this one gets out), I was biking (yay bike, exercise, fresh air, BIKE <3) and as I was pulling into the alley I live in (it's not gross, it's a nice paved road, just doesn't have a name so it's an alley), my neighbors were pulling out. The visibility for cars isn't the greatest there so I made sure I was where they could see me, thinking they could stop or at least slow down for a second so we could pass each other safely. Nope. They angled the car towards me and sped up. So I had to quickly veer into a (unpaved, gravely) parking lot to avoid getting hit and I ended up falling off my bike and destroying my (admittedly, already falling apart a bit) favorite pair of boots.

Needless to say, I was in tears when my bf got home because it was just fucking scary that I have to live in the same building as these people and see them every day. I mean, I know we have a mutual hatred for each other, but I didn't think they would actually try to physically harm me, you know? Sadly, I have no proof (unless someone who lives on the alley was looking out their window, which is unlikely since it was the middle of the morning on a weekday) and there's really nothing I can do.

I'm so scared of them right now.

Tuesday, April 22, 2014


sleeping puppy <3

most delicious yogurt ever <3

apple! <3

candles and incense <3

I dye my hair too much,...

puppy on her second birthday <3