The title of this blog is from the book Blood Beast (Book 5 of the Demonata series). I take no credit for it. ^_^

Tuesday, December 31, 2013


So it's the last day of the year. Holy shit. It doesn't feel like it's been a year and I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not.

The neighbors have left apparently. At least, their car isn't out front. Hopefully they aren't coming back tonight. It would be nice to have a New Years Eve without them being loud and rude and annoying and pms-y.

I couldn't face my morning coffee and yogurt so I had a big mug of peppermint tea instead.

Happy New Years Eve!

Monday, December 30, 2013


So apparently I just can't keep food down? I dunno. I had a normal breakfast today (light yogurt - 80cals, soy milk in coffee - 8cals, 88 total, which is safe, yes?) and the neighbors were being so horribly loud. Like yelling about how annoying our dog is and slamming shit around downstairs. Or at least that's what it sounded like. So I threw it up and now I'm too scared to have anything else today because I thought I was done with that making-myself-throw-up bullshit.

Clearly not.

Sunday, December 29, 2013


Jones soda makes a zero calorie black cherry soda. I didn't see any aspartame in it. And it doesn't taste like aspartame. Or have the laxative effect of it. Oh my god. We were messing around at Big Lots yesterday and found a case of 24 cans of the stuff for $7.50. Yes!

It tastes amazing. <3

Also. As much as I despise my neighbors for saying they're going to legally force us to debark our dog, I do have to admit they have done one good thing. They helped me realize that I can still make myself throw up when I thought I couldn't do it anymore. Haha fuck you assholes I will always find the silver lining.

Saturday, December 28, 2013


The neighbors have been unbelievably loud recently. They got back yesterday and I haven't had a moment's peace so I've been listening to loud music through my earphones though that doesn't help much since they are literally shaking the entire apartment.

Bf got me a crapton of 80cal yogurt and apples. <3 So happy right now.

Friday, December 27, 2013


Today was weird. I had cottage cheese and coffee for breakfast (wtf?). Then bf wanted to go to Panera for a late lunch (just got back around 4pm) and I had a half soup/half sandwich thing (he ordered for me ugh) and I was stuffed after a small cup of water and a few small bites of each thing. He got me a red velvet cookie from there too so there's some leftovers sitting at home now because I was like...  REALLY stuffed after the few bites at lunch. It's strange how my stomach seems so much smaller now. I'm not complaining though. (=

Thursday, December 26, 2013


So we did absolutely nothing for Christmas. Haha. I played Skyrim and yelled at my 2 followers because they were fighting each other instead of the Draugrs. That's about as festive as it got. Oh and I got a bit drunk.

Hope everyone's holidays are going well <3

Wednesday, December 25, 2013


Merry Christmas, darlings <3

I gotta say though. I'm a bit ticked off that in a country that prides itself on "separation of church and state", the public library closes on Christmas/Christmas Eve. Like... okay thanks, what about us lonely non-Christians?


Reading LotR right now. <3

Tuesday, December 24, 2013


Bella - thanks for the recommendation =) I'm checking out that Target Weight app right now <3

So I finished a scarf yesterday. It's purple (knitted) with these like... bow/ribbon thingies on it (white/green). I took a picture so I might post it once I get that off my phone haha. =)

Also I had like a pot and a half of coffee yesterday. Oops.

Bf insisted we get peppermint bark fudge and super buttery popcorn while we were out fabric shopping but I wasn't even tempted to eat any even though he kept offering me some. Haha. Fucker.

Monday, December 23, 2013


Bf got me homemade peanut brittle. I stuck it in my desk drawer and I'm trying to ignore it. I know I won't eat it but it's still bothering me. Also I feel like it's teasing me in a British accent.

And I've been drinking coffee like mad recently.

Maybe that explains the peanut brittle's British accent? o_O

Playing around with weight tracking apps on my phone. I've used MyFitnessPal, but it's a little too much for me, since all I want is a weight tracker, nothing else. Anyone use any good ones?

Sunday, December 22, 2013


I've been drinking coffee with a splash of soy milk and telling myself it's food. Yes, it's calories, but if that's all I have in a day (no more than 100cals worth AT WORST, usually less) in addition to a meal that's anywhere between 50 and 500 cals, I think that's okay. And it keeps my stomach from hurting from too much coffee. Yay. <3

Saturday, December 21, 2013


I went shopping today and got cute black/grey argyle tights and absolutely adorable knee-high socks.
I have to be thin to pull of clothes like that.
Also I found red velvet coffee. Ohh my god. It's like coffee that you put in a coffee maker so... this should be fun. Except we freeze coffee to make it last longer. (Only coffee that we haven't opened yet.) And we have two open bags of coffee and one other one in the freezer. It actually makes me quite happy that we have so much coffee. <3

I've been throwing up still but I think I'm just gonna not eat. It's so much cleaner.

Thursday, December 19, 2013


Had an apple and a bowl of pasta today. Threw up the pasta though so I don't think it counts. Er well... half the cals count. But I've been light-headed since I threw it up, even after drinking a cup of peppermint tea, so I'm not too worried.

I got an A on my writing portfolio. Apparently the professor had no idea that English wasn't my first language.
Fuck yes.

Tuesday, December 17, 2013


Bf and I had sex two times last night. And it was absolutely amazing. And probably a good workout XD

I've been dancing around the apartment drinking coffee and cleaning all day (he's at work). My dog keeps giving me weird looks. Also sat down and played Skyrim for like 30mins or something. Ahaha.

I fucking love snow. And coffee. Especially coffee.

Monday, December 16, 2013


One exam left. And then I find out if I passed my English class. My stats final grades are out but I'm too terrified to look at it and see if I passed. I probably didn't. Fuck.

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Saturday, December 14, 2013


Two finals done, two to go.

Coffee is my bff <3

Also I've been sleeping with this one guy and oh my god he's amazing. We just hang out for sex, nothing more. It's really therapeutic sex though. I totally forget everything except all that numbing pain (he's into kinky stuff ^_^ it's like 75% of the reason I sleep with him) and he's actually a good person as far as I can tell. Ahaha. Anyway. That's been fun =) Sadly he's leaving for winter break. But I still have a week with him before he does leave. <3

Tuesday, December 10, 2013


Or percocet. Whatever your drug of choice may be. XD My puppy slipped her harness this morning while the bf was taking her out and she ran around the block a few times and I ran out and tried to help the bf catch her except I was still in my pajamas meaning I was barefoot. Oh my god. My feet were KILLING me because there's so much broken glass/gravel around our neighborhood. It was a good morning workout in the freezing cold though!

@Bella - about the cracking skin thing... I'm just really lazy about moisturizer. I feel like if I used it even on a daily basis I wouldn't have this problem at all. XD Even after one application last night my hands feel so much better <3

I'm sleep deprived as fuck right now. That run this morning (4:30am - when my bf leaves for work) really woke me up. T_T

Monday, December 9, 2013


I've been throwing up 2-3 times a day almost every day recently. Ugh. And my hands are all dry and cracked and bleeding. It looks really gross. Moisturizer helped at first but not so much now. I think I just need to start wearing gloves or at least arm warmers. YAWN.

Sunday, December 8, 2013


Pictures: veggie pizza my bf made, my puppy, my fat self, our new Assassin's Creed game (got it the second it came out ^_^), and an adorable mini birthday cake the restaurant we went to for my birthday (back in late October) brought me at the end of dinner.


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