Wednesday, February 26, 2014
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
My cold is getting so much better. I hadn't had coffee in 2 days so I got a Monster Rehab today. (side note: because I do want to be healthy, I asked my boyfriend to limit me to one Monster a month - though I will never be crazy enough to limit my coffee intake again omfg I had the worst headache ever today and as soon as I started drinking my Monster I felt better <3)
Happy thoughts, happy thoughts. I'm still undecided on the therapy thing. I'll think it over during my massage on Saturday. My mom got me a certificate (for my birthday back in October lmao) to get a massage, manicure, and pedicure at a salon/spa a few blocks from my apartment. I had the appointment scheduled for this past weekend, but I was sick so I rescheduled it for this Saturday. Whee. I hope it'll help me relax a bit. <3
Monday, February 24, 2014
My mom and my bf are still bugging me about making an appointment with a therapist. But then my mom gave me an article on people getting awful withdrawal symptoms from Xanax after taking their doctor-prescribed dose of it. Wtf. So I'm kinda holding off on that. I dunno. I'm not thin enough to get therapy. Yes, I know it's for anxiety, which isn't weight-related, but still. What if the therapist is just like "just go eat your feelings, like you obviously do cause you're so fucking fat?" I know they wouldn't actually be that rude but still... what if they think that? I dunno. I'll wait until I'm thin. Then maybe I'll deserve it.
Just for the record, I'm not being totally stupid. I am trying to take care of myself and keep myself from going crazy. Like I have a few friends I can call who'll help me calm down and the bf always helps when he's home and stuff. So I'm really not being terribly irresponsible.
Sunday, February 23, 2014
Bf got me these meal bars. They're 180cals each and apparently have loads of nutrients and stuff. I dunno. It's pretty exciting I guess. I don't really go for the whole idea that you need special diet foods to lose weight, but if I can incorporate something extremely healthy into my diet, and it happens to be a special diet food, I don't see a problem with that.
Saturday, February 22, 2014
I also drank a crapton of coffee. But I've been balancing it out with tons of water too because I know you're supposed to stay hydrated when you're sick. Thankfully, not eating isn't even hard. Sadly, bf keeps pushing me to eat anyway. Apparently I need calories to get better. Though in my opinion, if my body needs energy so much, it can just use all the disgusting fat all over me first. Fatass.
Hope you all are doing much better <3