The title of this blog is from the book Blood Beast (Book 5 of the Demonata series). I take no credit for it. ^_^

Monday, March 31, 2014


I had an apple when I got home from class today so I feel incredibly guilty right now.

My concentration is slipping. I forgot this really basic character in Chinese today because I was too busy worrying about which of my boyfriend's friends had stolen $200 worth of panties/bras from me in the past few months.

I think I'm going to confront one of his friends about it and tell him it's fine as long as he doesn't do it again and he pays me back for it. And I'm going to insist that my boyfriend installs a deadbolt on the bedroom door so no one can enter but us.
Problem is, this guy has a key to our apartment. I don't feel safe at all right now.

Sunday, March 30, 2014


Thanks for the comment, Bella <3 She's really not bad. She was so, so nice and I didn't mind talking to her, which was weird.
Honestly, my biggest fear is that I'll run into a classmate there, since I'm a psych majors and undergrads can do internships at the counseling center. >_<

I have lunch with my mom today. In less than an hour. Kinda freaking out. =/

I rewatched the first episode of Sherlock today. I forgot how much I love him <3

Saturday, March 29, 2014


blue nail polish <3

coffee and Harry Potter <3

jelly beans <3

Friday, March 28, 2014


(While most of the pics I post on here are of thin girls, I also mainly post them because I love their outfits <3)

I went to the counseling center at my university today. The girl (she was a trainee apparently, so not fully licensed, but she was nice and seemed perfectly professional so I didn't mind) was awesome. She didn't get freaked out at all when she asked "how are you currently coping with your anxiety" and I said "I let guys tie me up and hurt me" XD And apparently she didn't despise me because she checked her schedule specifically to see if our schedules matched up so I could continue seeing her. Yay <3 My next appointment is April 10, but I already feel better just knowing someone is on my side. Does that make any sense?

I threw up stomach acid (not having eaten anything that day) until I could barely stand yesterday so I decided maybe I do need a *little* help. Not like completely cured, because that would probably feel weird, but I don't want to be *this* crazy either.

Thursday, March 27, 2014


mew <3

my hair after I bleached part of it and dyed it purple =)

me being fat ^_^

Wednesday, March 26, 2014


I'm so tired. I looked up the information to make an appointment with the student counseling center at my school. Apparently it's completely free and they do individual/group therapy and stuff. But then it said that initial appointments are walk-ins. And I'm like fuck. And they don't have an email listed - just a phone number, so if I wanted to make an appointment I would have to actually talk to someone.

I think I'll deal with this on my own.

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Sunday, March 23, 2014


my puppy being tolerant XD

me being fat

pic i took for a friend that made me quite happy

one of my stuffed animals (taken at an awful cafe in downtown that serves too much deep fried stuff)

the new game my bf got me <3

Saturday, March 22, 2014

Friday, March 21, 2014


The boyfriend went grocery shopping today. He got me baked cheetos (wtf??) and ben and jerry's red velvet ice cream. I told him to pick me up fat free vanilla yogurt. Instead he got light Greek vanilla yogurt. NOT EVEN CLOSE IT'S FUCKING 140CALS PER CUP. UGH. But he did get me apples so that's okay. I dunno. Blah.

At least I have my coffee and SO MUCH TEA. <3

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Wednesday, March 19, 2014


I've been so tired and jumpy today. I've had half an apple and a cup of coffee. I plan to have a yogurt later and probably finish the apple. So neat and uncomplicated.

Tuesday, March 18, 2014


I need a super constructive hobby like this ^
Any ideas?

I'm also too freaked out to go outside (only reason I'm leaving the apartment today is I have an exam in 45 minutes) or weigh myself.