I'm reading Thin by Lauren Greenfield. It's a book with more material that was collected while the documentary with the same name was being filmed. There are stories about the women at Renfrew (an institution for women with eating disorders) and pictures and a few essays by doctors.
It's an interesting and very sad book.
I don't think I'm ever going to let my diet turn into an eating disorder. I know there's not much danger of that considering how big I am. But it's scary how sad these women are.
My sociology prof is super skinny. Apparently she has 2 kids. And even with that, she's terrifyingly thin. It's kind of distracting in class. I keep wondering, is she sick or just extremely into fitness (her arms look muscular) or does she have an eating disorder? She's really friendly too. And a pretty good teacher.
I'm getting into Chinese again. Like we had to work in small groups (of 2-3 people) and translate a dialogue into English and my 2 group members were relying on me for it. =) It made me happy that I didn't lose all my Chinese skill in the year I wasn't in school.
I'm studying psychology and linguistics but the classes I'm taking this semester are Quantitative Methods (math-based psych class), Abnormal Psychology, Chinese 201, Sociology, and GSW, which is a general education requirement English course.
I'm going mildly crazy... not only homework, but also cleaning and reading and everything.
I finished Stick Figure. I really liked it actually. It is a recovery book, but it's a very good read.
Don't worry, Bella - I hadn't been in years either. XD I kept putting it off once I started making myself throw up because I was terrified they would find out. They didn't notice any sign of it while I was there, which is a good thing I think...
Totally scared of getting my wisdom teeth removed though. T_T
School starts on Monday! <3 I'm already frantically reviewing Chinese! Haha XD
I have to wear a dress because wearing leggings/jeans hurts my leg. I fell yesterday and even though I was wearing leggings (they escaped unharmed), I have a 2 inch cut on my leg and it's horribly bruised, so even the slightest touch hurts like hell. Ugh.
I'm hoping a dress and heels and shiny earrings will distract people from how fat I am and how fucked up my leg is.
I'm currently reading a book called Stick Figure by Lori Gottlieb. It's... interesting so far I guess. It's written from the perspective of an 11 year old girl, which is odd. I think I prefer books from the perspective of young adults or adults or an omnipotent narrator... >_< I do plan to finish it though. =)
<3 Wish me luck!
So I have to get my wisdom teeth removed. Scary! >_<
I've been really sick the past day or two. Like, normal cold stuff (runny/stuffy nose, sore throat, blah blah blah) but I think I have a fever or something cause like I'm sweating but I feel cold. And I'm dizzy.
The bf has been super nice though. He doesn't mind at all that I'm sitting around playing video games and reading. Haha.
I have to go to the dentist tomorrow. Ugh. I'm trying to get out of it but I highly doubt it'll work.
And my period's late. Well... almost. Haha okay this isn't a period blog so I'll shut up. =3
I've been rereading Harry Potter (reading the second one atm) and watching PLL recently. Oh and playing Assassins Creed. ^_^ Trying to enjoy the last remaining week of summer.
And I'm ordering my new textbooks tomorrow. Yay! <3 Though I can only order them for 3 of my 5 classes since one prof said her booklist is messed up so we shouldn't order stuff until the start of the semester and the other prof wants us to get the instructors edition and I'm like... uh wtf?
Also my puppy keeps spazzing at random stuff. =) It's adorable!
So we've moved into our new apartment =) We're not completely done unpacking yet, but it's already lovely here. ^_^ In the closet, there's a set of stairs that open up so you can store stuff in each step and there's a small window and it's so nice to sit there and read or whatever. ^_^ And our apartment is on the second floor so the windows open out onto the roof. Haha not sure if we're technically allowed to go out there, but we did and it's pretty cool. ^_^
My eating's been weird here since I have no routine at all thanks to all the unpacking and moving and getting settled in. It's okay though. School's starting soon! <3
Paid tuition today, rental agency informed us that we're moving on THURSDAY not FRIDAY like they originally said. Normally I'd be ticked off about this but the new place is so cute and I've been so stressed out about this move I just want to get it over with. >_<
I made bf dinner last night. =) tri-color pasta spirals with cheesy pasta sauce that had bell pepper, chick peas, and tofu in it. Also made him iced black tea with honey, raspberry flavoring, and lemon. And chocolate chip cookies for dessert. =) He was quite happy about it.
And I finished getting my school supplies last night. I have about $30 for the rest of this month that aren't dedicated to buying textbooks so that's going to be fun. XD Bike isn't getting sold until next week at earliest ($60 or $80) and I haven't sold my textbooks yet. Dunno why I'm freaking out about it though. My parents are more than willing to provide me with money, especially for school stuff. Eh I just want to be independent I guess.
The boy got a second job. His first job is 11-4/5 every day (sundays off). His new job is 5-1(am) every day, weekends off. >_<
Is it bad I'm actually happy about this? I'm looking forward to all the alone time... <3
Had dinner with my mom tonight. There was baked broccoli (cooked in oven with little bit of olive oil and pepper/salt), whole wheat three cheese tortellini, romaine lettuce, homemade marinated beets, chocolate, white wine, tea, and berries (strawberries, blackberries, blueberries, raspberries).
I am stuffed beyond belief right now.
Also I got 2 boxes of chocolate from Russia. >_< Family... they'sh some crazy bishes.
I love my family. <3
They might be a little crazy, but they're mine and they love me, so everything's okay.
The boyfriend has me on an emotional roller coaster. One second he's super loving and kind and I can't do anything wrong in his eyes, the next second I'm the most useless pile of shit he's ever seen. It's like he can't decide.
We randomly had a fit of mania last night (yeah, both of us at once! XD weird) and I gave the puppy a flea bath and he vacuumed every inch of the apartment. Including under the couch and bed, where he normally doesn't vacuum since it's a pain in the ass to move. I'm covered in scratches and bruises now because my puppy really does not like baths. XD Like, at all. She doesn't get violent, she just really struggles to get out and you have to hold her super tight and make sure she doesn't hurt herself by falling or hitting her head against something.
But she smells super good now. =) And there's like no fleas on her. So... yay?
We're moving in less than a week. So terribly excited for that! <3
Haha... I don't really go out either, Bella. It's quite a struggle to get me to go out to a bar or anything. Though the music at goth night is AWESOME. Plus there's crazy people dancing. It's like a tame rave, especially with the lights and how everyone is friends. =)
The bf got me caffeinated water. It's a bottle of water that's caffeinated. According to the bottle, it tastes like normal water and it has the same amount of caffeine as a cup of coffee. XD No idea if it tastes good, though I'm curious to find out.
He's making a veggie-heavy dish for dinner tonight. Super yay. It includes homemade hummus. <3 (We buy bags of dried chickpeas and I practically devour them when we soak them to soften them... chickpeas are godly)
Stuck at 59.1kg.
Should I blame chickpeas and apples? Kinda seems weird to.
My mom got back to the states last night. She wants me to come over for dinner on Monday night. Terrified! I don't want to eat dinner with my mother. At least the bf doesn't get bitchy if I don't eat, he just tells me to eat later and gets a bit upset and overprotective when I get dizzy. Lol I'm too fat to have these problems...
Goth night sucked. I cried for like an hour before we left because I was just too fat. Ended up going and dancing a bit though, so I guess that's good? My friend who I call Monster Guy brought me two pink lemonade rehabs. ^_^ And some random chick said I looked hot.
Haha... Bella, I have been doing that XD peppermint tea is my best friend atm.
That postsecret reminds me of my friend o_O Except he's 18. But same thing really. Haha. Oh well. He's a really sweet person and a great friend. It just takes a lot to get him to leave his house. XD
Oh god... my puppy doesn't snore at all ^_^ she's super quiet. Except she flips the fuck out when she sees ANYTHING outside. Like even if it's a bee or something. >_< Still adorable though.
Ugh I have so much to do before the school year starts in like... 3 weeks. Crap. >_< I have to sell my old textbooks, get my new textbooks, pay the tuition bill, get school supplies, catch up on my Chinese... omfg.
And hopefully find a part-time job. Just because I want my own income. Mom's monthly allowance ($100 T_T) isn't quite enough XD I mean, the bf buys all the necessities, but I'd still like my own money, you know?
Smart phone apps are ridiculous... so distracting XD I have a sudoku app. Oh god. >_< It's lovely. <3
I just gave the dog a bath. Oh my god. She does not like water. At all. >_< It was a bit of a workout keeping all 30lbs of pure energy in the shower while I was letting the flea shampoo sit like you're supposed to. >_< But that's good, right?