The title of this blog is from the book Blood Beast (Book 5 of the Demonata series). I take no credit for it. ^_^

Thursday, October 31, 2013


The neighbors played horribly loud music yesterday. Like, they live under us and it was vibrating the floor and making my gums hurt like fucking hell so I screamed in pain (I couldn't go out because my pain meds make me too dizzy to walk right and I didn't want to take more pain meds because I'd already taken 2 that day) and they turned the music up more and then the bf came home and said it's my fault they did that because I'm so fat.

He keeps treating them like they're royalty or something and the only reason he does that is because the girl is so fucking skinny and they have these perfect little Christian names (nothing against Christians, but these are like the BAD kind of Christians who get off on telling you you're going to hell if you aren't one of them). Like, they hate that our dog barks and said we should get an anti-bark collar for her, which are these terribly inhumane things.

And the percocet made me all loopy today during class (to the point where I was convinced that sheep hatched out of painted Easter eggs) but then when I got home I crashed really bad from it apparently and I couldn't stop crying and wishing I could sleep but being too miserable to sleep. So I think I'm done with the percocet for a while.

Ugh I just wish my gums would stop hurting like crazy.

Wednesday, October 30, 2013


Thanks Bella =) I'm only working on my 5th language though. I'm in my second year (3rd semester) of Chinese, so I don't exactly *know* it yet.

Ugh one of my medications is making me really dizzy. It's either the percocet or the anti-swelling one.

Thankfully I'll be off the anti-swelling one after taking the last pill of it tonight. =) Which means no more eating loads and loads of food. Still more food than I would like to eat, but nowhere near as bad as it has been.

Starting tomorrow, I'm having a light yogurt for breakfast (since percocet will make me sick if I take it on a completely empty stomach) and a small cup of something for dinner (bf got me fat free cottage cheese and I like putting curry powder into it, so that's an option <3) and a cup of tea and water throughout the day, then work my way down from there (aka stop eating so much as soon as I'm off all the pills)

La la la. Thankfully something (probably the percocet again haha) is keeping me from getting too panicky about all this damn eating. =)

Tuesday, October 29, 2013


About the achieving things thing... what I mostly want to achieve is learning a lot of languages, which I do have to work on consistently. Sigh. I planned to learn a new language every 3 years. Considering I'm only on my 5th language, that means I'm tragically behind. T_T

The surgery yesterday went really well <3 The doctor and his like, assistants or whatever you call them (nurses? are they nurses for a surgeon? I dunno) were so nice! Like I had chosen to get general anesthesia instead of just a local anesthetic so they had to give me a nose breathing tube with laughing gas and oxygen and an IV and when they saw me panic a little (not physically, it was just apparently really obvious from my eyes) when they started wheeling the IV bag in, they immediately wheeled it out again and started me on the breathing tube and I couldn't even see the IV bag when they did bring it in, and I'm not sure it would have scared me that much even if I had by that point XD I had lovely dreams about vacations and boats and stuff and when I woke up what felt like 5 minutes later, they were all like "you're done!" and I'm like "yay!" and I didn't even mind the nurse/assistant holding me to help me walk out to my mom's car because I was so out of it XD

So now I'm on loads of pills (5 total, counting my birth control) and the percocet is making me dizzy and shaky as fuck... well, not shaky, but like weak, it's hard to walk. And I have to eat WAY too much because apparently you're supposed to eat a little every time you take percocet (which is about 4-5 times a day for me) and eat a small meal every time you take the anti-swelling pill (twice a day) so.. yeah not fun =/ Oh well... antiswelling is only for one more day and the rest of the pills will be gone in a week so... hopefully I'll be all good by then. =)

How are you all doing? <3

Sunday, October 27, 2013


I got the entire Series of Unfortunate Events from the bf and some pampering stuff as well as a gift certificate for a massage from my mom.

I have a 5 page essay due Tuesday that I'm just starting to research and I'm freaking the fuck out.

I've had an apple today.

God I'm fat.

Saturday, October 26, 2013


Today's my 20th birthday and my puppy has been curled up next to me under the blankets all morning. That's probably as good as my day is going to get.

I don't feel that old. =/ I feel like I should have achieved something in my life by my 20th birthday...

Wednesday, October 23, 2013


About that meal plan thing I posted earlier? Yeah no candy... Haha god what was I thinking. The thought of food is making me sick right now. =/

People keep asking me why I'm with my bf and I don't know how to explain to them that I love how sadistic he is in bed. First world problems... XD

Tuesday, October 22, 2013


The bf invited his friend over before I got dressed today and I had to stay in the bedroom and try to ignore them loudly playing Halo3 while I did homework. Ugh.

Why do I put up with him?

Monday, October 21, 2013


To make life easier, all I will eat in a day (consumed as dinner, which is the only meal the bf particularly notices if I eat or not) will be one cup (teacup) of dinner (soup or whatever he makes), one cup of tea, one tall glass of water, and one small piece of candy/chocolate. Our teacups are all fairly small, except my favorite one, and that one I will only use for tea, so... that should work. =) It's all nice and neat and small and perfect. <3

Sunday, October 20, 2013


Our neighbors yelled at us about our dog being too loud when she was barking in excitement because the bf got home (she always gets excited when one of us gets home and runs around barking, but not excessively at all). They're the idiots who moved into one of the few pet-friendly apartments in the city when they clearly hate animals. Ugh I hate them >_<

Saturday, October 19, 2013


My phone/earphones decided to have this TERRIBLE fight and not work together. Which is annoying, since the earphones work perfectly fine with my computer so I can't really justify getting new ones. Fuck. >_< I hope my phone isn't broken, though considering how much water the bf has poured on it, it probably is. At least it's under warranty (includes water damage) so that's good I guess..

Thursday, October 17, 2013


The amount of yarn I have is truly ridiculous. I love it. <3

Wednesday, October 16, 2013


Thanks for the comment. I'm just worried that if I take the anti-nausea pills without eating, it'll make me sick (like how you're supposed to take ibuprofen with food). I dunno though. XD We'll see.

Ugh my puppy freaked me out really bad today XD She was shaking really bad and throwing up a little. Turns out she just really had to go to the bathroom but it was still like, oh my god. I called her vet and the vet's aide (like nurse I guess) was going to call the vet back to work just for her, until I found out she was okay. Thank god she has such a nice vet though!

Tuesday, October 15, 2013


The oral surgeon is a fucking sadist. I totally thought they were putting me to sleep and taking out the teeth today. Nope. Just a consultation about it. He looked at my wisdom teeth, then rated how hard it would be to take them out on a scale of 1-6, 6 being the worst. My top ones are 2's and the bottom ones are 4's and they're going to need stitches (dissolvable ones, so I don't have to come back to get them taken out) and he gave me a prescription for 4 different medications I'll have to take when I'm healing. It's like an anti-nausea one, an anti-swelling one, a pain one (percocet), and penicillin. Like a crapton of the last two. The anti-nausea is supposed to be taken before eating (no solids for at least a few days though) and I'm wondering if I can get away with just NOT eating anything and not taking those pills... Meh idk.

Anyway the ACTUAL removal is 2 weeks from now. October 29. Wouldn't you know... I guess I will make it to my 20th birthday without getting any surgery haha. XD

Monday, October 14, 2013


Chicago was fun. I got a dress from H&M (size small, slightly too big on me) and two pairs of leggings (Victorias Secret, size small as well). Also got mango flavored hot sauce for the bf. He's pretty happy about it.

Getting my wisdom teeth removed tomorrow. So nervous about it!


Monday, October 7, 2013


I'll be in Chicago this weekend so no blogging.

I seriously cannot wait until October 15 when I get my wisdom teeth out... like, I'm nervous about it, but I'm also super excited. They really hurt so it'll be nice to not be in so much pain anymore. =)

Sunday, October 6, 2013


So yesterday I had homemade baked mac and cheese. Then the bf and I had a fight (it was really stupid) and I threw it up while he was in the next room and he had no idea =) I feel accomplished. I was scared I wouldn't be good at keeping it quiet anymore since I'm out of practice... I guess not. =)

Friday, October 4, 2013


The bf got all loopy (from lack of sleep) last night and was convinced that pancake mix was what kept you warm at night. I told him I was cold and he should share the blankets with me and he was like, just go to the kitchen and get some fucking pancake mix. I asked him how that would keep me warm and he was like it's a thick liquid I don't know it just keeps you warm. He actually got really angry about it... haha.

Then I fell asleep today and had a nightmare that I was eating lemon ice cream. What the fuck. XD

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Tuesday, October 1, 2013


Happy October.

There's this app called Whisper which is basically like PostSecret, except you can also message people whose whispers you read. It's supposedly completely anonymous. It's free on the Google Play store for anyone who's interested