My mom and my bf are still bugging me about making an appointment with a therapist. But then my mom gave me an article on people getting awful withdrawal symptoms from Xanax after taking their doctor-prescribed dose of it. Wtf. So I'm kinda holding off on that. I dunno. I'm not thin enough to get therapy. Yes, I know it's for anxiety, which isn't weight-related, but still. What if the therapist is just like "just go eat your feelings, like you obviously do cause you're so fucking fat?" I know they wouldn't actually be that rude but still... what if they think that? I dunno. I'll wait until I'm thin. Then maybe I'll deserve it.
Just for the record, I'm not being totally stupid. I am trying to take care of myself and keep myself from going crazy. Like I have a few friends I can call who'll help me calm down and the bf always helps when he's home and stuff. So I'm really not being terribly irresponsible.