Kinda sad about it. Classes are usually a wonderful distraction from the rest of my life.
That guy who threatened me keeps messaging me and I'm too scared to go to the cops. Not for some legit reason. Just that I don't want to bother them and I'm not sure if it's just my general fear of males in general that's making me perceive what this guy is saying as sinister or if he's actually crazy.
I mean... I think he's crazy and I should be scared of him. But I'm sure you guys understand... I don't entirely trust myself and I don't think I'm worthy of protection/attention/positive vibes of any sort.
We talked in a time frame of 24 hours. Maybe 48 AT MOST. And now he's saying he never forgives or forgets and I'm wondering what I did that was so wrong. I really can't think of anything, besides telling him I don't want him to contact me again and attempting to persuade him that I'm actually not a slut who sleeps with everyone I see. I didn't realize doing that would be so offensive to him though. -_-
So yeah kinda freaked out. I'm glad my bf has his super sharp ceramic knife and that my dog is so protective of me. I'm not sure if she would actually hurt anyone but she barks and that would give me enough warning that maybe if he did show up, I'd have enough time to call someone for help.
I really can't handle this.
-24°c?! Fuuuck. We're back up into the 40°s again this week.
ReplyDeletePlease do consider going to the police. I promise you it won't be a bother to them. Everyone deserves to feel safe, that's why they're there. Even if it's just general fear (though he does sound quite sinister), they can at least reassure you.
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